"How many times undone can one person be?"
I've been sitting here for quite some time now. Working a puzzle on the minkster's blog. With some crazy quiet meditation. And dedication. To this useless little task. And I'm not stopping til I'm finished. But I've realized some things. My "place," if you will. And I'm okay with it.
For tonight.
If something doesn't fit into your puzzle at the time, you need to get it out of the way. And you should expect no less of others who are working on their little puzzles. There are spaces in time and place for everything/one. And perhaps mine has passed. So. Just because your puzzle isn't going as expected for the time being, you shouldn't rip it all apart and put it back in the box. As I would have done before (and have been so very tempted to do lately). You just have to do what you're being forced to do. Be who you're being forced to be at the moment. And I'm okay with that.
For tonight.
Fucka buncha every goddamned thing.
Little Ani Difranco never ceases to amaze me. This song has been stuck in my damned head all day:
"so what?"
who's gonna give a shit
who's gonna take the call
when you find out that the road ahead
is painted on a wall
and you're turned up to top volume
and you're just sitting there in pause
with your feral little secret
scratching at you with its claws
and you're trying hard to figure out
just exactly how you feel
before you end up parked and sobbing
forehead on the steering wheel
who are you now
and who were you then
that you thought somehow
you could just pretend
that you could figure it all out
the mathematics of regret
so it takes two beers to remember now
and five to forget
that i loved you so
yeah, i loved you, so what
how many times undone
can one person be
as they're careening through the facade
of their favorite fantasy
you just close your eyes slowly
like you're waiting for a kiss
and hope some lowly little power
will pull you out of this
but none comes at first
and little comes at all
and when inspiration finally hits you
it barely even breaks your fall
who were you then
and who are you
now that you can't pretend
that you can figure it all out
subtract out the impact
and the fall is all you get
so it takes two beers to remember now
and three more to forget
that i loved you so
yeah, i loved you, so what
i loved you
so what
For tonight.
If something doesn't fit into your puzzle at the time, you need to get it out of the way. And you should expect no less of others who are working on their little puzzles. There are spaces in time and place for everything/one. And perhaps mine has passed. So. Just because your puzzle isn't going as expected for the time being, you shouldn't rip it all apart and put it back in the box. As I would have done before (and have been so very tempted to do lately). You just have to do what you're being forced to do. Be who you're being forced to be at the moment. And I'm okay with that.
For tonight.
Fucka buncha every goddamned thing.
Little Ani Difranco never ceases to amaze me. This song has been stuck in my damned head all day:
"so what?"
who's gonna give a shit
who's gonna take the call
when you find out that the road ahead
is painted on a wall
and you're turned up to top volume
and you're just sitting there in pause
with your feral little secret
scratching at you with its claws
and you're trying hard to figure out
just exactly how you feel
before you end up parked and sobbing
forehead on the steering wheel
who are you now
and who were you then
that you thought somehow
you could just pretend
that you could figure it all out
the mathematics of regret
so it takes two beers to remember now
and five to forget
that i loved you so
yeah, i loved you, so what
how many times undone
can one person be
as they're careening through the facade
of their favorite fantasy
you just close your eyes slowly
like you're waiting for a kiss
and hope some lowly little power
will pull you out of this
but none comes at first
and little comes at all
and when inspiration finally hits you
it barely even breaks your fall
who were you then
and who are you
now that you can't pretend
that you can figure it all out
subtract out the impact
and the fall is all you get
so it takes two beers to remember now
and three more to forget
that i loved you so
yeah, i loved you, so what
i loved you
so what
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