Home now. It's really weird, but I'm sort of glad.
But you were wrong. They didn't really do shit but their job. No more, no less. It's even more proof that my assumptions were correct.
...But I would like to emphasize that most assumptions made are completely wrong... A simple fact seems to be neglected nine times out of ten.
"Of course it's sad. No one wants to believe they're all alone."
"You know, you're a real upper."
It makes me chuckle to realize that I've been here before. Same fears. Same context. Same conversation. Verbatim. It gives me the advantage. The advantage of desensitization.
And you said I'd never have to use that word. ;)
Furrowed brows banished by amused grins.
Superfluous at best.
Tact is highly overrated.
...As is the illusion of eloquence...
It all DID catch up with me. Only it wasn't quite the slow decline that I expected. It was all at once. Like an avalanche. Unforgiving. Deadly.
"Well, at least you gave it one hell of a try."
...And in that moment, I realized you were so fucking right...
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Martina Sorbara - All in Good Time
Just a few more days 'till spring
And I'm crossing my fingers
Oh let the snow melt into rain
The city is deserted
As if everybody hurt it
This town doesn't want us around here today
And I've got that feeling my life is caving in
I can't help but feel that way
So don't even tell me that all in good time
That I'll be just fine
I'd feel so much better if you'd loosen my tether
As I'm tossed about, your cold white ball
I'd get on the freeway, wont stop driving 'till next Tuesday
And put a thousand miles between us or more
I know that's not possible, all the streets here run in circles
I wouldn't even make it out of the car
So don't even tell me that all in good time
That I'll be just fine
Don't even try to ease my mind
Oh don't waste my time
If I do get through this
I promise you this
Next time around I'll get it right
I'll walk through your ghost town
In nothing but my night gown
And you can blow with all your might
And I'll face you smiling
Whether dying or surviving
But for now I just got to make it through tonight
So don't even tell me that all in good time
That I'll be just fine
Don't you try to ease my mind
Oh don't waste my time
Don't even tell me
That I'll be just fine
'cause I know I'm not fine
Don't ask me to try and be kind
Because it's personal this time